Just venting

I usually don't talk about my issues with depression. It's something I've been dealing with for some time now. Most mornings I wake up and my first thought is if this will be the day.

A little back story here. I've been playing Destiny and it really helps. A lot of you gamers know how it goes, that being a world to get away to. You meet some people online and they become a little more than you expected. They end up becoming a real friend and sometimes a friend in the real world. I've met a few of my online friends. Sometimes you develop an e-crush on them.
The Awoken warlock is Hero and I'm the human titan. I met her one raid night and we've been playing a lot since. We text often and talk over the phone everyday. She lives in the Pacific Northwest and I'm from the SF Bay Area, but originally she was from here as well. This past holiday season she came down to visit family and I got to spend time with her and damn was she even better in person. At my age I'm more into personality and looks and from that alone she's one of the most beautiful people I've met in a while.