I'm running on empty...

I just don't know how much I have left. There seems to be nothing good in the world anymore. Full disclosure I've been battling major depression issues for years. In therapy and on meds that work and yes I do take them everyday. But both my personal life and what's going on in the world are making everyday tough to get up and go to work and live in general.

I know everyone is dealing with 2+ years of this damn pandemic, rising prices for everything, a broken and dysfunctional political system, and now a potential World War. For me personally work has become very stressful and even physically painful at times. Severely understaffed despite being a union shop with above average pay and good benefits. It is a plastics factory and the entry level jobs are either mind numbingly boring or so busy you can't think straight. I'm in the latter category, and at 42, its only getting worse and management just doesn't care. I HATE my job but I need to stay with it because I need the insurance for various health issues. Such an American problem.

Friends are slowly leaving my life and family has never been very close to me. I'm also a lifetime member of the forever alone club. I'm not some woman hating incel either. I guess I need to vent, scream into void, something. I know I used a mostly empty beer glass but I'm not and alcoholic or addict of any kind. No recreational drugs for me, especially weed because I can't smoke due to a collapsed lung issue I've been dealing with. Also I can't afford them. My outlets are video games and watching baseball, so that sucks too.

Fuck this has been quite the ramble, thanks for reading, I guess? I really don't mean to be a bother or burden to anyone. I've seen other posts like this and I usually read them. Do what you will IMGUR, I just had to get this out in the open, might help.

TL,DR Life sucks and it never gets better.