Well...

Grab a drink, this might be a while.

Let me preface this, I am 34, almost 35, and about as socially developed as a 10 year old...probably worse. I just moved to Deadmonton from Victoria, last fall, because...I couldn't afford to stay; rent was too fucking expensive, work didn't pay enough, had no fucking hope in hell of ever owning a home. I now have a good job, that pays a hell of a lot more than I made in Victoria, and rent is cheap. I can work on repairing my credit and work towards actually buying property in the next few years.

Problem is? I moved here knowing two people: The first is my father's best friend. Good guy, but literally twice my age. The other is someone who I considered a close friend online for the past four or so years. Used to talk on discord all the time in a group we were in. Drama happened, he left that group, joined a different one, and spends most of his time there. We've met in person three or four times, but lately it feels as though he has utterly no interest in talking with me any more.

Course, the one friend I had back in Victoria hasn't tried to contact me either, and everyone else I knew, were "friends" from highschool, none of which have ever made an attempt to keep in touch with me in over a decade.

Well, there are two friends I still have that go back to highschool, or earlier. Don't talk often, one is in Vancouver, the other somewhere in Ontario.

So yeah. Feeling isolated as fuck with no one to talk to about anything. Never been good at meeting people, and have only gotten worse over the past decade. I am paranoid of acting like an idiot, or being awkward. I have no concept of how to actually meet people, and actually initiate/form a friendship. I am utterly oblivious to social cues of any fucking sort. Depression and anxiety are coming back to kick my ass.

Just...fuck.