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Trigger warning. Suicide. #markedmature mature? Idk how to do this… FUUUUUCK
Dec 19, 2025 11:48 PM
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Trigger warning. Suicide. #markedmature mature? Idk how to do this… FUUUUUCK
LogicKitty
Ouch. I'm sorry internet friend. Just keep holding on. That's all any of us can do. Day by day, hour by hour, but keep holding on
wibbIywobbIytimeywimey
That’s some really wild uno reverse card, Christopher Nolan plot-twist, “I bet you didn’t see that coming” shit. Fuuuuuuuck… damn that is wild.
SJBSavageInk
He saw the signs in you he saw in himself 😢
7chickens123000
I'm so sorry, friend. Many are hurting, we must comfort each other whenever we can.
4thwalled
I spent a while looking through my saved memes for an uplifting response to this. But I don't have one. Nothing that can express the empathy and sadness and desire for you to have the support to get through this. Because I get it. I've lost friends. I've nearly lost myself many times. I'm 50 next year and never thought I'd get past 20. I am so sorry you are dealing with this, but you are not alone. We may all be "internet strangers", but we are here.
Pikkupanda
Dear friend, please reach out for help. Not just for what you’ve been feeling for the last few months but for the trauma you’ve just endured.
Take care of yourself. Please. And my deepest condolences to you and your friend’s wife.
NineLongWall
Jeez. Didn’t expect that. @OP please keep talking to your friends. If you can bear it, talk to your friend’s wife, share good memories of your friend. And thank you for sharing this with random internet strangers.
FreakyKiwi
holy fuck
enkrypt3d
that's brutal.... not sure if i should share my story or not as it's about the same.... and pretty fkn dark.
disabledmoth
I am so sorry.
AyatollahBahloni
Well that's a kick in the teeth. I'm very sorry for your loss, @OP. Stay strong, you are needed in this world.
smax410
Thanks
badgerZ505
I’m so sorry this happened. Try to stay well.
CorgisButtsDriveMeNuts
Wow, what the hell, that's... I dunno, anything I wanted to say just feels pointless!
So sorry man! :(
mrsdowneyjr
Reminds me of Robin Williams and how hurt people recognize other hurt people.
scoutMoonDiver
carbonr1
Ahh shit. I've been there but I don't know what to say... Hold on to the good stuff. People love you. They really do.
MrBananaPants
Well shit! I'm sorry for your loss internet person :(
Dociousaliexpilisticfragicalirepus
I’m so sorry. Nothing I say can fix it but, big hugs. Know you are loved and please stay.
LadyNetrex
I am so sorry 😢❤️
LazerSpacePirate
This is devastating and all too common unfortunately. Condolences
ArcaneM37
I had a friend I was super worried about and he hasn't responded on FB or text for over a year. I just got a christmas card from him amd his man. Time to write back an old fashioned letter.
F1yingFox
I'm so sorry for your loss, friend. Please stay strong
rmichelsen480
I have no real desire to live, but I would never kill myself because I have known people who were left behind and I could never do that to my people.
whothehellelseusesTingjidasausername
Talked to a friend at a work party for like a half hour, nothing but talking about good things in the future. Went home and shot himself like 20 minutes later. People in that state are hard to read sometimes
gronzilla
People are hard to read. The only ones you can read, are the ones who know how to be vulnerable. Be vulnerable so people know they can be around you.
stupidbastardinutah
Had a friend call me and check in. Like just to say hi. We talked about getting together and going on a hike in the following day or two. He killed himself a few minutes after we ended the call. That was yeas ago and I still miss the hell out of him. The sudden loss of a friend is devastating.
To everyone reading this, you grossly underestimate your importance to your friends. Even those you haven't seen or talked to in years. Reach out and find the help you need if you're struggling.
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Dociousaliexpilisticfragicalirepus
I understand. My dad killed himself in 2005. I called and asked for money a few weeks before. He said he didn’t have it. For that and so many things I feel guilty. Big hugs.
deweydecibel
Idk, I feel like they’d be sad and miss me for a couple days, and back to normal in a week
magus200342
Ikr? All mine are to busy to do anything ever, why would they care when they stop hearing from me?
smax410
I know the last time we texted was around a month ago and I’m afraid to actually look at the date to figure out the timeline.
MrsHowVeryDareYou
I believe firmly he was worried about you because he knew how HE felt. Not the other way around - if that makes sense. I’d bet good money his concern for you probably kept him with us a little longer than otherwise.
I also firmly believe that suicide (outside of extreme “this death is better than the alternative impending death”) is the result of one’s brain lying to them. Timing usually doesn’t make sense.
smax410
Thanks. Really
Joedog624
I believe it is less "he took his own life" than losing the battle with depression/mental illness akin to cancer or other maladies. I used to get angry and blame the victim, but as I've grown up and learned more, my mind shifted to one of understanding. It still sucks because the pain they were in doesn't go away, it just shifts to the survivors.
Centroid
Found one of my closest friends of 30 years on their bedroom floor two days after they plunged an 8” knife through their neck. Never been the same since. Godspeed and my the Force be with you.
DeercSnissassa
I found a close friend in the woods after he had been missing for 2 days. That was 12 years ago. My memory has gotten bad enough to where I can't remember what I did yesterday. But I remember that in full detail. The image burned into my mind still haunts me.
Centroid
Horrible experience. I’m sorry for you. My burned image haunts me as well. Probably always will. Hold your people close and may the Force be with you.
AntaNce
Crivens, friend, that's rough. I hope you are OK some day.
Centroid
Thank you. Working on it/slowly getting better. Meeting a phenomenal woman helped. Getting back into my art/hobbies helped. I quietly developed agoraphobia without noticing until I was already trapped. I went on a trip and realized it was the most I’d been out of the house in 2 years as the walls started closing in but I made it.
I was in Iraq/Afghanistan and seen/did some rough stuff (ashamed), but it’s different when it’s a lifelong beloved at home. Sent me on a hard long PTSD spiral.
AntaNce
Wow, dude that is a LOT. I am glad you are working toward health and acceptance. Also that you have a good companion. I know the horrors can stay & leave the PTSD in its place. If you have a therapist or counselor (or anyone who might know), ask if you can try EMDR for the PTSD & triggers. It really-really helped my SO after decades of suffering. Worth a shot maybe. I am wishing you a wholesome & peaceful winter & new year.
Centroid
I have a fantastic therapist but have never tried EMDR but hear good things. I need better insurance like everyone else though. Thank you for the kind words, friend. Godspeed to you!
AntaNce